Undergoing the surgery was immensely challenging, but, ultimately, it set me free from many years of pain.
I chose to be awake (I am bonkers) and for a few hours, had no clue which way things would go. Thankfully, my angels at Kings College Hospital kept me safe. And they fixed me.
For many years, I have had a very tough relationship with my heart. It caused me a lot of trauma, a lot of pain and a lot of shame, but slowly, slowly, I'm beginning to see that maybe, just maybe, all of it has made my heart, my being, my soul, that little bit more unique because of it.
So often as a fast-paced western society, we seek perfection in all that we are and all that we do. It is so deeply rooted in our societies, and the image we like to portray of ourselves to fit in, that so often, if we are that little bit 'different', we feel we are abnormal, alien - broken. Actually, we are just human.
I will forever treasure this gift from Holly. Not only is it so deeply meaningful to me, but the act of Holly's kindness is something I will soak up each time I look at it.
Thank you Holly, for my 'golden heart'.